Looking for My Sun

All poetry on this page is the original work of Amy, and copyrighted by her.
(Page Last Updated Tuesday, February 14, 2006).

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY

WE'VE BEEN MARRIED 19 YEARS TODAY
IT SEEMS LIKE A LIFETIME AGO
WHEN WE FIRST MET
YOU WITH YOUR LIFE
I WITH MINE
WE PLAYED AND ENJOYED
THE NEW FOUND LOVE
WE HAD FOUND
IN EACH OTHERS ARMS
YEARS LATER WE MADE A VOW
BEFORE GOD
OUR FAMILYS
AND FRIENDS
AND SEALED IT WITH A KISS
ALONG CAME THE KIDS
THE WHITE PICKET FENCE
STATION WAGON
AND DOG
EVERYTHING WE THOUGHT A MARRAGE
WOULD BRING TO US
THERE HAVE BEEN MANY UPS
AND DOWNS
IN THE YEARS SINCE THEN
BUT WE ARE STILL TOGETHER
ARE WE READY FOR ANOTHER YEAR?

For You Alone

On a sultry summer eve
there was a lonely woman
looking for a friend
her heart was incased
within a wall
badly damaged
alone
healing
waiting for the sun to shine..............
where there was only rain
the skies began to clear
there a rainbow formed for her
she followed its brilliance
through the months
of her journey
across the colorful arch
looking toward the gold
she hoped to find at the end
many came and went
as she traveled
there were raindrops
and teardrops
and there were golden rays of forming freindships
then..........in her wall
tiny cracks began to appear
the sun was able to reach the cold depths of her heart
the natural love
the wonderous bond
that formed
had changed her
as the weather grew colder and fall approached
the warmth withnin herself increased
her heart began to heal
and strengthen
from the love that found its way inside
taking the last few steps on the colored path
to the golden friendship awaiting her
she has come a long way
under your loving embrace
thank you my friend
my love
for showing me the way
may I always be here for you
as you have been for me
I love you
now
and
forever

The Golden Path Divides

As we walked the golden path
the seasons changed
and with them
our love
it seems all good things
must come to and end
and so must we
we still travel the path
looking for golden rays
but the path forked
and you chose the path to the south
toward the sun
and i to the north
you have grown as a man
and i have had a metamorphorsis
in my own way
our needs are great
pulling us in opposite directions
you taught me that it was ok
to love again
you opened my eyes
so i could once again see
and awakened my mind
so i could feel again
you have prepared me for what is to come
next in my life
for that will never forget you
goodbye my friend
may all that you are looking for
be yours.....

The Storm of Life

as we walk through the storm of life
it is sometimes hard to find
a quite place among the turbulance
a place you can go to for rejuvination
when the gusty winds and powerful downpours
become too much for you
I have been your rock
your place to come home to
the cornersone of your exsistance
but.....
where do I go for help
when time and life weather my surface
taking bits of sand and blowing them off in to a place
where nothing is returned...
The path of my life is darkened
the future looming ahead of me
my solidness keeping me pinned into place
as though a bolt of lightening
has pinned me to the earth
In moving forward
i must choose a path
and take wing
to soar though the clouds
to the sunshine hidden within them
must I leave you behind me
in the dark void
follow you toward the light
or......
or walk hand and hand
with you
til the end of time?

Faces

faces are the windows of the soul
they change with emotion
and age

as babies our faces are soft
and round
and cherubic

the eyes big and round
staring openly
and honestly

as children we learn to hide our faces
when we feel guilty
or shy

as teens we use our faces for acceptance
we try to pattern our expressions
and appearance

after those we feel are better than us.
striving only for popularity
not individuality

as young adults we learn swiftly
to make eye contact
and smile

when we want to make an impression
on our boss, our freind,
or our lovers

by the time we are truely adults
we have had much practice
in deception

making our faces happy
went we are in truth
dying inside

shuttering our eyes in order to
to allow no one to see in to
our soul

but when we have truly found our one
the shadows move away and the
shutters lift

our eyes fully open to bare our soul
knowing we are loved
and accepted

this is a very fragile time in our lives
relying on love and trust
in our one

but the rewards are without comparison
even across a crowded room
you can connect

and what is wonderful beyond words
is seeing the look of pure
contentment

and the peaceful beauty upon the face
of the "one" you call
your love

Field of Flowers

Life is like a beautiful flower
each day as unique
as each petal
of each bloom.
The stem
ever lengthening
in an effort to reach the nurturing rays of the sun.
The roots ever deepening
to draw life from the earth.
Looking out over a field of wildflowers
each one an individual blossom
slowly opening
petal by petal
each flower resembling its species
but accually a rare individual
no two exactly alike
some have thorns
or rough edges
others are spicy
or sweet
how hard it is to chose just one
to put a smile on your face
one whos individuality touches your heart
and warms your soul

MISSING YOU

Why am i feeling
like half of me is gone today
I know You love me
and think of me
yet
when You are out of reach
my heart beats a little slower
feeling the effects of time and distance
my day is a little longer
reminding me with each passing moment
that You are not there
my arms are emptier
knowing You are not within reach
my mind is full of thoughts
of the time when we will be together
once again
why i cannot be whole
when You are absent
is simple
we are one
in mind
and soon
shall be
one in body

Myself

in the last few months
i have come to know myself better
i am a strong and caring person
capable of many new
and exciting things
i no longer exsist within myself
hiding from the world
i can stand on my own
without falling
the wall surrounding my heart
protecting it from furthur damage
has been pushed aside
allowing me to love again
to feel again
to live
i never want to go back
just move forward
and continue to grow
with nothing but memories behind me
and blue skies in front of me
and You by my side

Needs

i need your love
and acceptance of who i am
and what i am trying to be
i need your guidance
to make my path
and show me the way
i need your passion
to warm my heart
and feed my soul
i need your friendship
to nuture me
and make me strong
i need your hands
to hold me
and make me feel safe
i need your anger
to learn my bounds
and show me the depth of your love
i need you eyes to tell me whats in your soul
and your ears to hear me
your lips to taste me
your skin to feel me
your heart to love me
what i need
is for all of you
to need
all of me

Midi is "Here Comes the Sun" by the Beatles.