Eryn's Poetry

All poetry on this page is the original work of Eryn Parke, and copyrighted by her.
(Page Last Updated February 5th, 1998).

The Day

You lay there in silence
When God took you home
You look so peaceful
But, you know you are not alone

Your eyes are still open
Like you are wanting to see
You lay there still naked and under the sheets
But, now you are free

You are not breathing in
The pain you once had
You are now happy
We are now sad

You used to lay there
All washed over in pain
Now you are free from the suffering
You are now in the sun, no longer the rain

We know you are with us
While you watch over us from above
Dad, you are in our hearts forever
And we know we always have your love

Now I stand here
And I do not know what to say
For now and forever I will remember
That October 23, 1997 was THE DAY.
---
Dedicated to my father, Robert Parke, who was born into eternity today.
I will always remember you and I will never forget you. I love you.

Dear God

What are you suppose to do
When someone close to you dies
You feel relieved and happy for them
Yet, all you can do is cry

My father has been sick
For a very long time
All I wanted is for him to be happy
With all my heart, soul, and mind

I find it really hard
To believe that he is gone
Here lies a road ahead
A road which seems so long

Now that all my pain and hurt
That I have kept inside
I now have to let it go
I have nothing more to hide

My dad is no longer
With us physically
But now where ever I go
I know that is where he will be

His love and his soul
Will surround me completely
I know his love is eternal
And I will always love him deeply

I feel your presence
Around me right now
I know I have to make it
I just hope I know how

I have my sister, mother, brother, and grandpa
And all of my family and friends
I know they care for me
And are there for me until the end

They know my hurt and all my pain
They know exactly what I feel
They know right now it is not a dream
And all my feelings are real

God, please take good care of my dad
Let him live happily
God, please direct him to the light
That you shine on him eternally

And now for me and my family
While you take my dads home
Please take our hands and help us through it
For we can not make it alone.
---
Dedicated to my daddy, again.
I read it at his funeral and a copy is buried with him right now..
I love you!!

Carved on Stone

As I walk into the place
Where you once lay
I picture your smile
And it makes my day

I remember the love
You brought in our home
No matter what kind of problem I had
I never solved it alone

Your warm voice
Touched my soul
Without the love of you or mom
In my heart, would be a hole

But your love seals it
With the sweetest little kiss
Not knowing at the time
That now, it is yesterday I miss

I always thought
Those days would last
But now they are my memories
Of your love in my past

Now to walk to where you lay
I must walk upon the dead
I close my eyes in prayer
And bow my head

I talk to you
Not through words but through my thoughts
As my tears roll gently down my face
I realize what I have lost

I can not see you anymore
Only your name carved on stone
And you enter my soul through my love
And forever you are home

I realize your with me
In everything I do
I am happy to know you are always with me
Daddy, I still love you.
---
Dedicated to my daddy, Robert Parke Jr.

Written 12-11-97

Like A Bird

I am like a bird
Trapped inside a cage
Who sings so loudly
With a heart full of rage

It is in pain
It just wants to be free
Just like my insides
That are screaming inside of me

My heart was once yelling
But now it only cries
What happens when you are all tied up
The bird and I will die

The little bird inside me
Sings so hurtfully
For I am trapped inside myself
Leaving me in misery

The bars are so solid
They are to hard to break
But my heart is so soft
It is melting because of my heartache

It is not because of being trapped
It is because I am free
I know it sounds ridiculous
But I do not want to depend on me

I am not as strong
As the bars that hold the bird inside
I am so weak
But I hide it behind my pride

So, let me set that bird free
So it can fly high into the sky
As I look up in tears
Why is it so hard to say good-bye

I am afraid to say good-bye
What if I do not see love again
I guess everybody says good-bye
To new and old friends

I looked up yesterday
I saw my bird fly by
All I did was smile because
I have no longer the need to cry

I finally freed myself
Of all the maddness and pain
And I am in love again
I give them, too, my love in vain

Yet, they do not capture me
In my heart, like you
I am as free as the bird
We both finally found love that true

His wings love the wind
That lets him soar so high
My heart loves the truth
It no longer has to cry

The bird is always singing
The sweetest melody
And I am always smiling
With the fact you actually love me.

Written 12-01-97

A Friendship

When we were close
I felt warm all over
My body would shiver
And my smile was there
As we touched
even with just a finger
A chill ran up my spine
I felt the connection
As we held each other
tight in our arms
The warmth of love
Surrounded us completely
I felt the cold air
brush against my face
The warmth was there
But that was before
Now, when I look back
I see that I was blind
While your warmth of your body
is what I felt
God was giving me coldness
to see the truth
And the lies up ahead
I would shiver with fear
That was yet unknown
The chill that ran up my spine
was the coldness of your touch
Your touch with no feelings at all
The coldness I felt upon my face
When we were tightly holding
each other as if we were one
Was the gap between us
For your lies never let us
be as close as we should of been
The gap of our love
Which made it fall
God knows what He is doing
When he gives you signs
But love is so blind
That past their words
You can no longer see
Take Gods word for it
for fate can not be stopped
That gap is what is now
our friendship
That is what it should of
been from the start
A friendship

Written 12-23-97

Belief

This year for some reason
The Christmas spirit never hit me
Until Christmas Eve
When I saw a sparkle in an eye
It was in the eye of a child
Who was just happy for everything
The child was so excited and full of cheer
Just because it was Christmas
The snow had just started to fall
And the coldness set in
But the child was safe and warm
With her family
And that she knew
Her smile was permanently stuck on her face
Her dimples widely noticed
She looked so cute
All dressed up in green, red, and white
Just running around the house
Seeing the decorations
and cards everywhere
The lights on the Christmas tree
and the presents under it
Packed with lots of toys
She stands in the middle of the room
Making everyone laugh
Just waiting for the night
When Santa Claus arrives
When I saw that sparkle
and happiness in that child
I thought back to my childhood
and right then I knew
That presents mean nothing
For that child was just happy to live
and the belief in that child in Santa
Was all I needed for the spirit of Christmas
To reach my heart and soul
Christmas is the day of Jesus birth
Do you know that for a fact?
No
But look in the eyes of a child and believe
Belief is the only way your heart will grow.

Dedicated to the Christmas of 1997, when I saw my cousin Emily's happiness and
it changed everything. Also influenced by Mr. Kozoed and school.

Written 12-25-97

Blink

My eyes filled up with joy
As my mind thought wonderful thoughts
Maybe this time it will work.
We hung up the phone, I was the world's
Happiest person,
My smile would not leave my face
for I was too happy.
I dreamt that night,
Wonderful dreams
You and me together as it should be
Smiling and holding each other
As it was before
Hugging and kissing each other
Until we both dropped
I was whole again.

My eyes filled with tears
As my wonderful thoughts were crushed
I guess I was wrong again
It could never work again
My dreams vanished
And instantly became pain
No more wishing or wanting
For I found out the truth
My fantasies were gone
And presently on my face
Was no longer a smile
It was a frown
A frown that now won't leave
For I am the saddest person in the world
My heart was broken again.

"I love you"
"No, I was just joking."

Written 12-15-97

Pain

I can see the pain haunting inside you
You can not see mine but I have pain too
It hurts too much to say or describe
This feeling I have I know I must hide
It is too strong for words, actions, or thoughts
But i know that it is there, for it is me that it haunts
I feel it when I am alone and when I am confused
It hurts me so bad that I feel abused
I wish someone could reach out and help
But the pain hurts me so, that it drowns out my yelp
It knows what I am doing or what I am thinking about
I feel so different like I am turned inside out
God, please help me by letting me find this pain
So, I again can have something to gain
This feeling I am feeling will not go away for it is much too strong
I know it will be in my soul all life long
When I look at happy people, I feel like I could die
Because they do not have the pain I feel and they do not have to cry
Like I do every night and every day
Trying to get that awful feeling to go away
To just let the feeling disappear
So every new day I do not have to fear
I need help to bring back my past
Hoping this time the memories will last.

Written 2-3-97

Open Your Eyes

The wierdest things happen
When you least expect them too
You are so happy one minute
And the next you are feeling worse than blue
You think you have everything
Yet, what you need is a great surprise
You think you are on your way
But, you forgot to open your eyes
You search all over
Looking for a special heart
You have one, yet not as close as you think
The one for you was there from the start
You never thought that that heart
Would dominate over all
That it would be there to listen
Would be there to answer your call
You never appreciate what you have
Until it is almost taken away
Now, we are together
And I cherish each and every day
I opened my eyes and realized
I was missing something important, yet so new
I had an open hole in my heart and soul
Now it is filled only because of you.
---
This is dedicated to Kevin (Matt), thanks.

Written 01-20-98

For Every...

For every cry
There must be pain
For every drizzle
There must be rain
For every scream
There comes a helping hand
For every problem
There is a friend that understands
For every laugh
There must be a smile
For every walk
it seems like a mile
For every cry
Must have a tear
For everyone
Must have a fear.

Written 2-11-97

I Know

I know the tears of saddness
I know because I cried a sea
I know the way a heart feels broken
I know because I have a broken heart in me

I know the way it feels to miss
I know because I have the pain
I know the feeling of cloudiness inside
I know because I am caught in the rain

I know the way it feels to feel empty
I know because I have nothing inside
I know the way it feels to run forever
I know because I have no where to hide

I know the way it feels to be happy
I know because you make me smile
I know the way it feels to want
I know because your life makes mine worth while

I know the way it feels to love
I know because I have you
I know the meaning of love
I know because to me, you are a dream come true

I know the way it feels to have
I know because I have to hold
I know the richest feeling I could have
I know because you are worth more than gold

I know the way it feels to fight
I know because we do
I know the way it feels to say I am sorry
I know because I said sorry to you

I know the way it feels to dump someone
I know because I dumped you
I know the way it feels to love someone
I know because I thought ou rlove was true

I know the feeling of giving
I know because it was you I gave my heart to
I know those feelings were real
I know I had them, but did you?

Written 10-22-97

You Took Me Through

I was scared I would get hurt like before
But when you looked at me, you opened a new door

I took a step, and looked inside
I hesitated but could not hide

I stepped inside to a wonderful world
Where the only thing that mattered was me, your girl

You took my hand and led me through
You showed me so many things we could do

You showed me a new world I never felt before
And now I yearn for you more and more

I feel that you are the only reason I wake and sleep
And you are the only reason I smile or weep

I once was lost, but now I am found
You helped me get my feet back on the ground

You say that you love me forever--it is true
I still feel hurt by my past--not you

I was scared at first, but now I see
That you are the only one for me.

Written 1-25-97

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